Keyboard found!!, 'Feleton' a test of faith & trust', God's faithfulness

2 days after pledging 10X more what I was able to give (budgeting or planning wise)upon being prompted by the Holy Spirit/God or the sharing by Andres (Mr Teoh TK)my prayer for my 'much needed' temp keyboard for practise was answered! (was tempted to think that I could have asked for something way better/expensier!! haha)

I pledged the amount that flash in my eyes in a split second during the sharing and I was moved that it was indeed a cause i believed in.. and believed God wanted to raise the funds through me as well..(It was for the 'Feleton' - Faith Campaign in Spanish for Hope Lima, Peru). Although by right i have a negative 200 or plus budget for this month as I was invited to go for a wedding up North in Ipoh Malaysia, I obeyed by faith to the prompting..and trust in God's working. Even if i don't see anything, it would be for a good cause.

I thought God has given me a budget to buy the keyboard instead from an unexpected monetary reward from workplace (as the avenue i thought could borrow the keyboard from initially became unavailable). However the budget was still insufficient to purchase a reasonable keyboard..

I continued to wait/lament to God on my need - in order to get started on for a ministry!
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2 days after 'Feleton':
On Saturday 9 Aug 08 (National Day) at St. James Power House@Dover, i invited a colleague over to join for the Unit gathering -- and Voila!
i unexpectedly found that my colleague had the type of keyboard i needed unused sitting at home available to lend it to me! PTL!(it was the exact type or quality i was looking for). Though it was just a lower-end to middle range of $400 keyboard. It is a Yamaha, with good Touch Sensitive keypads and sound..

I really Thank God for His goodness..and in awe or amazed by Him simply..and almost tempted (like what Ps Jeff mentioned in his sermon)to just kneel down and worship the Lord! while I was viewing and collecting the keyboard the day after!

I realized i had been asking God for this keyboard since 2 months back..as I needed it to practise for my audition and as i am intending to take up keyboard lessons to learn and improve my keyboard skills!!

I really hope that it isn't too late (coz i've not responded/replied to Geoffrey for a long time), or always took a long time to respond.

I prayed to God 2 months back whether i should go ahead and take my AWDII keyboard course with my good friends/closer keyboard mate and instructor.. but didn't have the peace or assurance form God. The reason i prayed or asked God is that I didn't or wouldn't know what the 'future' would be, and that He knows what lies ahead..

Indeed, the 2 months ahead turned out to be a tough and turbulent time with great emotional turmoil for me to handle on top of my work challenges (which God faithfully helped and see me through). And the break from any extra lessons was a good thing.

Now that God healed my heart or am well better, i believed that God's timing is perfect.. and I would need to apologize and explain to Mr. Geoffrey of my MIA in response..as I was fearful and lack of confidence due to lack of practise (without a proper keyboard, plus handling the down time).

I don't know what God's plan is.. but more work to be done and I'll see how things turn out!

Plans from Aug-Sep:
1) change of CG?
2) Keyboard
3) AWDII
4) Hope Sem OT Survey 2

On top of handling my work well- stabilizing and learning well to be a good and seasoned CRA by end of the year.

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Testimonies of God's encouragement:
1)Got a very good feedback or 'passed' my first SIV (Site Initiation Meeting conduct) from Australian evaluater despite it anticipated to be a very tough and challenging one.

2)Got a bravo award for the other project being part of the team, and will be monetarily rewarded (a small USD250 amount though).

(thank God for letting some light shine - for His glory, not my own)

A Healing Encounter with JESUS @ FOP (3 Aug 08)

Went to FOP (Festival of Praise) for the 2nd day on Sunday. Went on Friday with Miss Liwen. :)

During worship led by fellow Hillsongers band (with Rueben Morgan), I sensed the Spirit/God speaking to me:
"Look to me, not your friend"...(the sole reason i was there is because i had the opportunity to invite a fren there so that she could encounter Jesus/God's love too..)
me: hmmh? Is it God talking to me??
"I WILL HEAL YOU."
me: Hmm, ok.. (am i just thinking/making things up in my head?? but doesn't seem like it.)

(before the Festival started, i was running about trying to meet the needs of the various friends whom somehow got connected together and I was their connection link to get everyone taken care off, including a sister in a wheel chair!)

after the session, I was concerned for how God can touch my fren Michelle with the song lyrics/Holy Spirit whatever..

But God told me to look to Him instead.. coz He wanted to minister to me..

Hence i obeyed the prompting of the Holy Spirit/voice of God.
Amazingly/to my surpise, after i closed my eyes, quiten down and focused on God, the next song that was sung was briefly became
"Turn your eyes upon Jesus.."! wow.

The timing was so perfect..
during the song, I had a vision of Jesus coming to me (He was large, but it was dark as my eyes were closed in the darkened concert hall). I saw him streched his hand towards my head. At that point i was thinking whether I was making/imagining things on my own head. And I also thinking what would Jesus/God want to heal me of??
my Physical health or emotional health/heart??,or of everything/wholly? (that would be great!)

But i resovled to not question so much and just let God what He wanted/heal me, not knowing what would be healed.
After that the vision just disappeared. And moments after that,the burden, heaviness/uneasiness in my heart was gone. Lifted. I didn't have that gnawing or draggy feeling that weighted my heart down due to some triggers being around anymore!

With that I just thanked God and praised & worshipped Him with great JOY..!! i could even smile at my trigger.

Despite that, i still had doubts whether my heart was really healed? Or was it just a temporary feeling or release.
Time would tell.

And indeed till the very next day, the thing that was causing me to be distracted the entire week unable to focus on my work was gone. My heart was no longer down/disturbed. My emotional turmoil was gone..
Praise God!!

I was indeed very touched by His love for me that He came down to look for me and meet me face to face. (I was desperate for a cure and I needed/wanted to function well to finish or do my work at work!) And God came to rescue me and brought me up out of the slimy pit.

Many weeks ago during church service when i started to be down due to hurts, Michael spoke words of prophecy to encouraged those who are in emotional turmoil to find quiet time to be with Jesus for Him to minister.

However, guess the busy/easily distracted me didn't get to sit down quiet or long enough or at all to seek God/Jesus's face. Admist the brief prayers and reading of His words, merely.

Conclusion: I am in love with Jesus now. As i've MET Him personally. And His Love healed my heart apart from the spiritual/divine healing.

Praise God for His goodness and kindness to me! :)