The Removal of False Securities through the 'Shepherd' change affair..

Recently God allowed me to confront a circumstance that revealed that I placed my aconfidence or security in another wrong place: Sprituality, how well I've grown, and how people viewed me etc.

Other places of security may be financial income, job status, relationships (having a bf/gf), looking good etc. these are not wrong things but placing our security in them is bound to set us to disappointment coz neither of them last. Rather it should be on God, Jesus the Rock alone..who is eternal, unchanging, powerful and mighty..

It was through a Shepherding change that didn't fall through as planned..
and my Unit leader suddenly told me the because if that, he thinks that another choice would suit me..Lo and behold..
a 'younger' sister both by spiritual age and age was named. Though she is serving as a leader now, She was like the New believer that my CG harvested previously (of course that was some years back already, and people do grow through different seasons of time & opportunities, and at different pace too) and i have always related to her as the 'younger' sister to look after or encourage.

I had a hard time reconciling the fact that it would be kindof 'switched' around. Coz i have not have a wider mindset of a shepherd & sheep relationship where there also could be peer mentorship. I still can't imagine or comprehend it.


Thanks to my current/or rather ex-shepherd,
She challenged me to ask/question myself

1)Why do you want to grow/develop yourself, etc. (and fast)
2)Why am I feeling this way..

Q1) half of me thinks for the noble..
Q2) And through the thinking, i realized that I was upset because.........


When i asked God about the shepherd assignment,
Jesus said: "Oh well" and smiled..

Still wanted to bargain with God.

But after i was back to SG after CNY, before I could reply my leader, he msged to tell me he has decided back on my original shepheard. Whom I finally met on the faithful 15 Feb 09!

Of course I was extremely delighted to hear the news when I first heard it. And what a relieved and thanking God.. haha.

Thinking back, it is a COMPLETE DUHH.. situation.
After being tossed forth and back.
Yes, No, Yes, No and then finally now Yes..

But i really thank God for this incident which gave me the opportunity to confront a False security or wrong place where i had put my confidence in..

GOd is wise and good!

My confidence & Trust shall be in the Lord..
Verses: ............

Farewell to 2008 and Slide straight into 2009

Time waits for no man... In a blink of an eye, and getting busy, it's soon mid Jan. (and now it's Feb). In a while's time we ith all the busyness and timelines, it'll be March!!

2008 Reflection- Painful but will a beautiful mid and end.
Most goals achieved somewhat..
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But mostly, it ended so beautifully that i missed/felt sad that 2008 was coming to an end towards the last days.. and was trying to savour the last moments of it.
I felt free/freed or a sense of freedom. somewhat and joyful & happy..
it was after a myriad of disapointments, hurts or entanglements of the heart. And even confusion of hearing God's voice and re-concilling turn of events.
But they were short-lived as I learnt to trust in God......

(Work wise also ended great with good appraisals)

Summary/highlights of 2008:
Thank God for:
1) the overseas travels made possible by god to Sydney, Melbourne, Switzerland, Hungary, and of course Sweden, family trip to Penang, more trips home due to Biz trips to KL several times.

2) Healing of heart during FOP (Festival of Praise Aug 08') in National Indoor stadium where Jesus asked me to focus, look to Him, that He will heal me, and He appeared to me - and my heart's burden lifted after that.

3) Healing of medical problem.

4) Work - Helps God has evidently given or brought me through.. resulting in Awards (Bravo) and good feedabcks on job performance. How God also delivered me from difficult situations by turn of events..

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The 'dangerous' 'Mould Me' song/prayer again..

A Testing and opportunity of moulding came immediately in a situation that would blow me off balance on the very last Sunday itself!!
And realized that I just sang the below 2 songs/echoed the "mould me" words in my heart, an indirect form of prayer and wilingness to let God make me a better/the kind of person He has meant me to be - to be like Him.. over the weekend..(Sat & Sun). Wahaha.

Btw, the below song I just love/i can't stop singing over and over..(Not sure of the title). I was reminded of this song after i was pondering over the 'unfavourable circustance that would befall me'.. and realized that God is indeed moulding me..

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Here I stand
Desperate for You
Here I stand
A vessel You
Let my life be Your clay
Mould me in Your ways

Here I stand
Desperate for You
Here I stand
A vessel You

Let my life sing your praise
Bring Honor to Your Name

(song fr CHC)
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On the Sunday itself,
The church would also sing 'Beautiful Savior'
Which was the very song that i sang last time (at CG - where i felt another moulding opportunity/testing came my way pretty soon)..

The lyrics/chorus:

"Mould me..Make me
Use me walk beside me
I give my life to the potter's hand"