Just ate 2 pieces of wierd Korean Cake earlier, for dinner..
Expiring soon (1st Oct) so had to eat them up. Given or sent by a Korean collegue back in July?? Put in a very nice light pastel purple color bag which I'm using to put my Samsung Mp3 player!!:)
just nice, ate an apple to for my dinner too. didn't plan for dinner..just as what God says He'll do..in providing my food. :)
not to mention my new Mp3 player which my bro ended up buying/paying for me. 1 GB some more!! muhahaa.. can store up to 200 plus songs!!
just great.. :) God is great!
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
That's TK's Birthday photo family shot!! (24th Sep- real B'day 25th Sep) what a great big family!! (spiritual/church family)Was away at the other table to brief the SubD Family day GAmes..missed huge portion of the celeb..hai..and this photo, didn't really bother to get my face seen though i know i'm being partially blocked.. especially the other photos..
;)
The CLC1 course which just ended 1 and half week ago. Nice class. Lots familiar faces and really felt that most/every lessons learnt lots of and new things. Most are skills and understanding of how, what and why things are being done.
Had ppl from my Turbo Grp,'NETS' ministry. Overall are nice bunch of ppl, fun and funny..and lively! especially a particular discussion grps that i was with. They were from the same SubD. haha- Ah Long's niece (found out that he was from GBS!!! haha unbelievable. Michael Radithya's bro, Agung was also there. Only heard his name when Michael shares stories/testimonies involving his family. and a couple of girls which i never remember their names (becoz it's a chinese name :()
Also, there's something about ULs (Unit Leaders) that I thot off..most of them which I encounter through these classes.. There's somehting similar or striking, or and aura that I felt about this people. Can see that they are ordinary or have an ordinary or even supposedly inferior backgrd or being..but there is this maturity, stableness that is present.. in the way they speak, teach and relate.. just amazing..(God is their confidence and they have a sense of purpose, knowledge, humility and understanding.. and how things are around them)
cool yeah?
Monday, September 26, 2005
Armor Bearer..
in CLC class last Monday, the last class.. 2 things struck me or inspired me..
1) hey, I want to feed and teach my sheep!! see them growing in the Lord with His Word.. after hearing how the others had sheeps where they can sit down and give teachings.. i was thinking.. ai.. Shopping everytime won't cause the sheep to grow. (but that was not true or the right thinking.. because it's a different stage now. and that's just an ideal case which we'll grow into, and there are many other avenues which we learn and grow..)
But unfortunately, due to my impatience..and lack of understanding.. my actions let to not being sensitive enough to the person..and led to a little conflict and strain in the relationship. this time i can only, sigh.. and shake head, laugh at myself and situation (though not funny..) and learn from my little blunder..But I believe God will make things right and I thank Him for letting me learn through these circumstances..
2) I want to be a good armor Bearer to my CL.. whoever my CL is..
(hmm.. yeah, it should start now..)
and the Saturday came in Turbo Group, was taught about being Armor Bearer..
nice to come to the point where your heart is ready and has the desire to commit, and the teaching came..
in CLC class last Monday, the last class.. 2 things struck me or inspired me..
1) hey, I want to feed and teach my sheep!! see them growing in the Lord with His Word.. after hearing how the others had sheeps where they can sit down and give teachings.. i was thinking.. ai.. Shopping everytime won't cause the sheep to grow. (but that was not true or the right thinking.. because it's a different stage now. and that's just an ideal case which we'll grow into, and there are many other avenues which we learn and grow..)
But unfortunately, due to my impatience..and lack of understanding.. my actions let to not being sensitive enough to the person..and led to a little conflict and strain in the relationship. this time i can only, sigh.. and shake head, laugh at myself and situation (though not funny..) and learn from my little blunder..But I believe God will make things right and I thank Him for letting me learn through these circumstances..
2) I want to be a good armor Bearer to my CL.. whoever my CL is..
(hmm.. yeah, it should start now..)
and the Saturday came in Turbo Group, was taught about being Armor Bearer..
nice to come to the point where your heart is ready and has the desire to commit, and the teaching came..
Facing reality and bad situations
It's really difficult to blog with no ready internet access at home, or time to do it after work. hehe.
anyway, my one week plus ago had been..interesting..up and down situations, seeing myself going through the same external pressures and problems that i went through not too long ago. Work haywire (boss chasing after you to clarify wrong time billing calculation, relationship with sheep didn't go smooth (conflicted) and event (SubD Family Day games) responsibilities coming down..
Phew, was seeing these things coming down my way, and was asking myself what God wants me to grow in or respond differently this time?
The usual thing that i've used to do or think is to trust and continue to rely on Him in all that I have to do..
But there was something more difficult for me to do this time, and I realize God wants me to deal with facing difficult situations.. I didn't and don't like unpleasant situations and will tend to avoid it, if i can. But this time, whatever mistakes, bad situation i had to face, through my work-- i realize i had to do it still. I realize I have the fear of making the same mistakes and will avoid doing things because of the hurt and pain/unpleasantness that comes from it..
For example leading worship, serving.. I'll only do it again perhaps after a long long time,when i have no choice, or when i have gained more self- confidence that comes from safety of experience and assurance that things will work out or knowing I could more or less do it without failing..
There are many unpleasant family situations at home too that I hated and or don't like, and try to avoid by all means. That's why for the past few years, I am relieved and happy being away from home and free from confronting the troubles..But they'll still come and find or haunt me and sometimes i can't avoid..
Through the little experience at work where I have to continue tabulating the TAS despite of fear of having overlooking figures, being careless or making mistakes again.. i am force to do it and face it no matter what. And i thank God for this opportunity to realize and to grow in this area..
this time round.. i feel that i am stronger to face the coming problems, pressures and circumstances that comes my way..when things don't go right..
this time, things went right again.. coz God is good and because I trusted in Him.
Praise the Lord oh my soul!!
It's really difficult to blog with no ready internet access at home, or time to do it after work. hehe.
anyway, my one week plus ago had been..interesting..up and down situations, seeing myself going through the same external pressures and problems that i went through not too long ago. Work haywire (boss chasing after you to clarify wrong time billing calculation, relationship with sheep didn't go smooth (conflicted) and event (SubD Family Day games) responsibilities coming down..
Phew, was seeing these things coming down my way, and was asking myself what God wants me to grow in or respond differently this time?
The usual thing that i've used to do or think is to trust and continue to rely on Him in all that I have to do..
But there was something more difficult for me to do this time, and I realize God wants me to deal with facing difficult situations.. I didn't and don't like unpleasant situations and will tend to avoid it, if i can. But this time, whatever mistakes, bad situation i had to face, through my work-- i realize i had to do it still. I realize I have the fear of making the same mistakes and will avoid doing things because of the hurt and pain/unpleasantness that comes from it..
For example leading worship, serving.. I'll only do it again perhaps after a long long time,when i have no choice, or when i have gained more self- confidence that comes from safety of experience and assurance that things will work out or knowing I could more or less do it without failing..
There are many unpleasant family situations at home too that I hated and or don't like, and try to avoid by all means. That's why for the past few years, I am relieved and happy being away from home and free from confronting the troubles..But they'll still come and find or haunt me and sometimes i can't avoid..
Through the little experience at work where I have to continue tabulating the TAS despite of fear of having overlooking figures, being careless or making mistakes again.. i am force to do it and face it no matter what. And i thank God for this opportunity to realize and to grow in this area..
this time round.. i feel that i am stronger to face the coming problems, pressures and circumstances that comes my way..when things don't go right..
this time, things went right again.. coz God is good and because I trusted in Him.
Praise the Lord oh my soul!!
Friday, September 16, 2005
CG, Need for Self Check & reflection
On CG yesterday, we learnt bout serving, in humility. One interesting thing that James got us to do, he got 2 volunteers, Jeremy & Gavin to illustrate:
1) We sitting in the centre of our live on the throne.. but when Christ came in, is He now sitting on the throne of my life? and me bowing to Him?
something i need to reflect on.. as i find myself recently..slacking, not as fervent.. sometimes seeking to please myself, rest & sleep when tired, don't feel like doing somethings.. running off early from the closing of the Team Hope/(Events Support) Appreciation & training Nite.. slow in making decision or less enthusiastic to make appointment to meet frens to SOW on..even wonder if i'm spiritually dry..
still checking myself..
the nice little quiet time of reading bible i had one morning i think early this week was refreshing/different.. feel closer to God after reading His word. It's really different if i don't do it. (Other days till now, i really didn't manage to get myself out of bed early or organised enough to have proper, unrushed, uninteruppted QT..)
Realised i have been relying alot on Praise & Worship songs to draw myself near to God and remember God's promises.. but i guess those are not enough and incomparable to the full verses and WOG in the bible!!
On CG yesterday, we learnt bout serving, in humility. One interesting thing that James got us to do, he got 2 volunteers, Jeremy & Gavin to illustrate:
1) We sitting in the centre of our live on the throne.. but when Christ came in, is He now sitting on the throne of my life? and me bowing to Him?
something i need to reflect on.. as i find myself recently..slacking, not as fervent.. sometimes seeking to please myself, rest & sleep when tired, don't feel like doing somethings.. running off early from the closing of the Team Hope/(Events Support) Appreciation & training Nite.. slow in making decision or less enthusiastic to make appointment to meet frens to SOW on..even wonder if i'm spiritually dry..
still checking myself..
the nice little quiet time of reading bible i had one morning i think early this week was refreshing/different.. feel closer to God after reading His word. It's really different if i don't do it. (Other days till now, i really didn't manage to get myself out of bed early or organised enough to have proper, unrushed, uninteruppted QT..)
Realised i have been relying alot on Praise & Worship songs to draw myself near to God and remember God's promises.. but i guess those are not enough and incomparable to the full verses and WOG in the bible!!
"May God continue to mature and equip you to fulfill the plan that He has for your life!"
what Michael Radithya wrote in his closing email in reply to mine for TH101 'The Christian faith' course.
that struck a cord in me.. giving me a sense of having a bird eye view and a sense of purpose of what i'm doing rite now..or should see myself heading towards..
also, recently, felt down and sian, and partially body feels tired--due to the short fever bout prolonged flu & cough i had (thank God it has almost recovered now!.
Feels like i have more time on my hand, but struggle to push myself to do more..
Flipped across this verse that reminded me.. Colossians 3:2-8
"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God..
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature:... You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these:...."
(sigh, a portion of my blog got lost again..still not used to the settings!!)
what Michael Radithya wrote in his closing email in reply to mine for TH101 'The Christian faith' course.
that struck a cord in me.. giving me a sense of having a bird eye view and a sense of purpose of what i'm doing rite now..or should see myself heading towards..
also, recently, felt down and sian, and partially body feels tired--due to the short fever bout prolonged flu & cough i had (thank God it has almost recovered now!.
Feels like i have more time on my hand, but struggle to push myself to do more..
Flipped across this verse that reminded me.. Colossians 3:2-8
"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God..
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature:... You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these:...."
(sigh, a portion of my blog got lost again..still not used to the settings!!)
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
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