CRM & a special Valentines

CRM
Not Client Relationship Management.

But CONFLICTS & RELATIONSHIP MANAGEMENT.

Conflicts in relationship. This is not my bowl of soup. It's like forcing myself to drink bitter soup/concoction.

Had a nice valentine day steamboat dinner with a few sisters from my church CG, and then dessert. (The food wasn't that nice but just enjoy the time tog.)
The brothers came with a surprise- each with a rose to bless the sisters. What a nice gesture..thanks to the bro who initiated or taught the rest!
However..It end with a conflict and me in a rut. With my sheep that is. With what she was trying to do which stems from how I relate to her and how she expects of me to be like. In terms of openess. Feel like I'm being thrown into a pool of mud. In my trying to be open, I was shot right in the head before I could warn her. Doing exactly what my mother did to me.

Anyway, certain things are my fault with lack of proper communication.

'Closing & starting over a new page' is a myth, I mean too ideal to achieve at this point.

Still in the process of working things out and the relationship. Relating. Crazy, headache, turmoil. Just some words to describe how I'm feeling when I just let my emotions go and focus on the problem.or not remaining in Christ.
Anyway, there has been conflicts since the beginning. And, God is letting me deal not only with relational conflicts but internal conflicts/issues.

It comes in a package. The TRIAL, Test & Training package from God. Phew.. Many areas to learn and grow from it. One thing is to juggle all this and still continue to serve God.

Praise the Lord! in the end! :) I'm half filled, mixed or flipping within joy & sorrow now..

'CONSIDER IT pure joy,..when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work, so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything'. James 1:3-5

That was last weeks verse for me to apply. Could dig into it or relate to it deeper now. When face trials of many kinds. Trial(S) they could come in many forms and also come together many at once..

I long for the fellowship of the Holy Spirit and the guidance of His Word. I need talk to somebody too..Shepherd not available till weekend..
Dear God…

Jesus He holds me together in one piece.

---------Valentines day this year at least I can remember---
Anyway,heart shaped Mon Cheri (Ferrero) chocolate from my boss! What a nice surprice. Anyway, he always gives gifts for birthdays, etc.

On the day before, after 16th day of CNY (I mean after CNY already..), received a surprise Ang Pao from another project manager. Really thank God for the unexpected blessings which really comes in handy in times of blessing others and in need.

Received Valentines greeting SMSes from Mike (dear collegue), Kin Wai,Jun Qiang, Spencer, Jason Kung, Eugene Teo. (What kept me wondering was that they all Christians! :) Also comfortable casual friends which seldom contact.)
Also got fr Yiping, Gwenda and of course some from email: bro Andrew, and collegue & fren.