My Week's encounters

Last few days,or on Tue, accidently spotted a sister on my way to work on bus 99.
Sitting at the bus stop, the skin tone, the bag and clothing color and stly seems familiar.. i was turning my head or body 180 degrees from my bus seat actually.. she looked at me and in a split second became a look of that of recognization.. and i realise it's G/XL!!

ok, her hair grew a lot longer from my last image of her hence could not fully recognize her. And recently, i spotted many familiar faces in town, mrt..only to realize a few seconds later they're not the person i thought i know. Hence, dare not react too much when I spot a familiar face.. ;P

Even at Funan foodcourt on Tuesday, thot i saw a familiar face. ex-hostel mate. Kent.. he was ordering food and back facing me. I was waiting for him to turn around (but didn't) to verify my findings, but concluded he's most probably not..(telling Jasmine). Went to buy my food and a long time later, walked pass the table and he called me.. haha. And it's actually him.

So for this sis, only managed to point at her in amazement when our gaze exchange made me realise it's her, and the bus sped off. I wondered what she's doing at the Jurong East bus stop, as she lives in BoonLay.
i called her, but didn't pick up. So nvm. an hour later, she called me..and talked to me..about her situation..

wow..i wonder..it's been a year since i seen her.. or exchanged the last catch-up SMS..
She was and is now still going through a time of.. don't know how to describe.
bout of depression, confusion, fear, hallucinations/hearing voices, distorted, negative thots and thinking plus responses - which really immobilizes her--in terms of relating with people and studies.
but a bit or actually lots better, interms of seeking help n making decisions. Stronger now.

I'm quite proud n amaze at her for her perseverance, strenght and ability to think in ways that will help herself, even though it wavers back and forth, even her faith in God.

I thank God that at least i was able to speak some truth to her as her mind ponders back and forth, being attacked by Satan's scheme through the world's philosopies brought to her by different people.

I also pondered upon my learnings from Hope Sem, in area of people helping, pr being a people helper, not qualified to be counsellor yet..
that at least it's being put into good use now, or come in useful when necessary, applying my learnings (whatever i manage to capture or learn).

She was confiding in me started from mid 2004, and now it's 2006. Was bit shocked that she was still in the same condition, or plague by the same issues and struggles..

By by God's love and grace.. i know.. and assure her that God will make her well and help her overcome..

Yesterday (Thursday) was suppose to be my free day and have some agendas planned of things to do(including reflection homework.) But she called me, and ended up talking on my phone without my ear piece for 2 hours..and than right after my mum called..by time it's 10pm plus when i went up to my home (aunt's). bit frustrated coz my planned time to do something was eaten up..

But of course submitted to God and to be willing and glad to be used by Him to minister to someone in need..

the call ended in prayer for her. But the conclusion that she herself came about (which i'm thankful for and proud of her) after ALOT of fragments and deeps thoughts linking to past and present.. IS

1) To love herself unconditionally..
2) Know that God loves her unconditionally
3) to be humble, discicpline....(can't remember) to seek God or His word when
troubled with negative thoughts again
4) to focus on completeing her studies for now..

And if all else (efforts) fails, to go back to point 1 & 2..

Amen..