Bumping into him.. (>half Written last Wed)

hai, i've still no idea where's the title column. don't see it in my blog space leh.

Nvm.
Sunday 2 OCt:
Normal Sunday, and finally or very excitedly, that hmm.. i am attending a Team Rally meet..haven't or have not served at leadership level yet before this..
Well, James invited me to the meet, to 'look see look see' or.. okloh.
though Andrew told me the other day to keep my Sunday lunch free. didn't know for what or didn't catch him properly.. it thot maybe incase he has visitors- to help look after..yeah, that was fine. coz if all leaders away.. who to take care of the people leh..

no visitors, but guess everyone could take care of themselves well.. have Jeremy also.

Anyway, so I went to the COMBINED TEam Rally meet for the first time..
My reason to want to go (Even though i'm not core team yet, or officially so) is to find out what the direction and vision and goals Ps Ben or the church has set out.. so i can like know what I could do also inline with that, and not have my own agendas and goals..

the reason I highlighted 'COMBINED' was that I didn't realize it's a combined meet! meaning the whole church including the Tertiary, youth, Filipino, Mandarin congregation..

haha. Stupid me. I first saw (or they called me) Shirley and dear Sijia at S11's table and happily and excitedly went over to them and half hugged them..
and then at the other end of the table saw..ehm..**
for me i just talked (hopefully not TOO loudly) because of my normal excitement seeing my dear sisters and ppl from Uni..

then walked off and towards Starhub for lunch with CG. hai.. rite after walking off the table my heart was like screaming loudly!! William was with me.. hai.. so wanted to share my exhilaration to someone but nobody I could share to.. only God loh...
so sad.

Then I realized, today’s a COMBINED team rally, that’s why they were here today!!
Hahaha.. got more happy and excited. (coz later he’ll be in there also..)

Going in to Nexus for team rally & the P&W has already begun. Was quite excited actually (of attending team rally) but tried to contain myself more and to think & act natural and neutral..

P&W was great. Gwendolyn, the Youth sister that many people who don’t know me well would mistake for me sometimes (due to facial and physical resemblance..) was leading P&W. and she was great in leading.

Then later, to my surprise (but not surpising), ** appeared on stage..usually I would be quite excited and beam widely. Then later calm down.

My first few thoughts was, hmm.. think I should I just call him my ‘idol’ now (someone I admire or being a fan of).. so that it would just be a normal kind of thing.

Nvm. Then to my horror or bewilderment (almost or did freeze in my seat for a while or a frozen look if anyone saw me then..) when suddenly later on he appeared & plonked into the seat exactly right across the passageway. What divine ‘co-ordination’. Or what I could think of..
Hai.. I just act bochap and stay cool lah through out.

(Side track..)
Was inspired at the testimonies of Christie & especially bro/Ps James Lim (fr Mandarin). His stories are always so real and amazing.. of how God works through him and with Him. (He was one of my Hope Sem instructor which inspire me much.. His life testimonies and enthusiasm and zealousness for God). I was telling Shireen that He has the gift of healing, evax.. etc. and what I remembered from his sharings was, we need to exercise it or use the gift when we’ve prayed and ask God for it..
His enthusiasm in running CGs last time when he was CL also amazed me. But it only caught on me when I struggled with thoughts that I would have a hard time or struggle with planning for CGs weekly when I serve as CL..(or even core team?) but I was reminded of his spirit.. and I kind of am inspired and motivated by it. And in turn am more positive towards running CGs. Praise the Lord.

Nevertheless, jotted some notes from Ps Ben about next Quarter’s direction..
Ohya, saw Mich went down to be prayed and anointed for – in her new role as CL!! Wah, Praise the Lord (a dear Uni Matric baby- my first, together with my dear ex-shepherd Daisy). God is great- with a wavering faith, can’t feel or experience God, she has now grown and mature in her faith and growing in her relationship with God.
The vision that God gave me of her leading in a SubD setting (during the first few months when she wasn’t stable in her walk with God and in fellowship) came to pass during my last SubD in NUS, and she’s now serving leadership role. Need to continue pray for her.

Then everything ended..

Was also thinking bout from the ‘holding on’ part which Andrew wrote in his blog.
Regarding this person, I’ve actually ‘let go’ sometime back.. (that explains the down grading to ‘idol’ or being fan of part.) But I would rather have it as admiring than anything else. Don’t like the idea and don’t want to have any idol or ‘idols’ before my God. The teaching after that week or was it the song we sang after that week was bout.. laying down my idols (Lord I will bow to you.. to the Word of truth…. …. To you alone). Don’t want anything that will distract me from my relationship with God and doing His will. Though I can imagine or remember what Han Hui usually would say “It’s not exclusively either-or” (something ard that line)


Although there were times where I’ll be caught reminiscing or dwelling (thank God rarely now) of the past possibility that God showed me through a sign that I asked for when I was way younger on whether he’s the right one (anxious, impatient-me), at church camp somemore! And God really showed me something you see! But thank God I was taught to understand and follow God’s general will first and not hold on
to anything (coz usually He doesn’t reveal anything specific if it’s not time yet, but of course He does if He has a purpose. And one possibility is that it doesn’t come from God). Well thank God for Accountability for through it, I am protected and guided to know God’s way and God’s will! ? Thanks to my shepherd as well haha, who guided me and taught me lessons on BGR back then even when she doesn’t have personal experience on such things. Such is the power of WOG! ++

TESTIMONY
Actually, God is great! Recently, there’s this Relationship Seminar in the adults. I thought it’ll be good to attend to learn more concerning relationship..as what I’ve learnt last time wasn’t enough I feel as sometimes I am still at lost or confuse of God’s way or principles that will guide me through my life). I had a desire in my heart to attend especially the second one (from Friendship to Courtship). Coz it’s quite interesting and relevant - for most ppl at this life station. However, my dear CL didn’t extend invitation to sign-up (he forgot as I’ve found out..) Hehe.. but nothing can stop God’s plan. It’s quite expensive also for the 3 sessions and I was quite ‘broke’/out of budget. And after the registration dateline, I called Lyi lyi and asked if I could register. And the response was negative - and advised me to borrow notes from my shepherd or others. Then ok lor.. good also as I didn’t really have the time for the 1st session, and the rest would kind of like clash half of it with my Hope Sem class.

But to my delight (And amazement – after everything was over), many weeks later, there was a sudden call for people who’s still interested to attend the remaining 2nd and 3rd part of the seminar. I found out I could only the 2nd and Shireen could attend the 3rd!! haha.. and so happily we signed up- (without dinner option)- and we’ll split the cost. (coz once yo sign up you’ll have to pay the full allocated fee – though cheaper than the initial registration fee).

A few weeks back, James messaged me to pay for the relationship seminar fee that I’ve attended. And it was only $3!! (compared to it I think $45 – If I signed-up earlier!)
Wow.. God is good. If He thinks what’s good or necessary for you.. He’ll give it to you.. ?
Now, I’ve been trying to learn to relate healthily to him and other people as well.. (As if I know him that well..not really actually).

-I can be really long winded.. haha. (more stories to come if any! – actually my own thoughts, reflection & recollection of things..)--------------------
-Let those who bother bother, let those who come and see, see...
(haha, my version of: ‘He who has ear to hear, let him hear’ (one in Luke 8:8b)- Jesus’s words.). for this particular story.