I Want Freedom!!!

I was screaming inside as i realize that 'I want FREEDOM!!!'..
I want to be free to fly and soar, to serve God with zeal and all power and strength. Again.
Feel that I've been robbed of joy for quite sometime. (1 Thessalonians 5:16 Be joyful always) or fullness and wellness of my heart and soul.. Where is the past happy and bubbly Doreen?
Yet I've learnt that joy is not hapiness alone... But the peace in the heart by trusting in God alone, that He is in control.
(So whatever I've been down with and struggling internally, or being tied down and held back with the sin that entangles…--God is definitely teaching me something, moulding me within, refining my being, making me like Him. eh, rhymms eh..)

And I thought of peseverance of the saints...

I searched for 'perseverance' in the bible.. And 13 came out in the NT.
Clicked on 1 Peter 1, and read around verse 3-7

Here's the answer:
His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. -1 Peter 1:3-7

1. Faith..
2. goodness.. whatever positive and goodness of God i can grab hold or
fathom both mind and heart..yes, His promises..
3. knowledge - knowledge of God, knowledge and understanding of
what i am going through or going through internally as His created being.
4. self-control - to not let things go out of control or react/do
something silly or out of porportion/blow things off
5. perseverance - continue to pull through.. and seek God
continuosly!!arhh (Pray continually 1 Th 5:17)
6. godliness---the result of being..in Christ..
7. brotherly kindness --then i'll able to show love more and more
with true overflowing God's love
8. love -- and love then deep unconditionally and unlimitedlessly!!
i mean sacrificially..

MORE and MORE
8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

amen

summary: perseverance >> godliness..